All I Wanted Was Your Time by Carole Rae

 All I wanted was your time. 

But you never had the time. 

You never could take a minute.

A second

A millisecond. 

There was never time for me…for us. 

I can’t speak for all, but I can speak for me. 

I loved you with my whole heart, 

But you couldn’t spare me a heartbeat. 

I called and I called and I called. 

I emailed and messaged…but you left me unread. 

What did I do to deserve your cold shoulder?

What could I have done for you to see me? 

I lived my life the best I could. 

I did things that made others proud. 

I was loud 

With these accomplishments

Just so you could see. 

But you still didn’t love me. 

What did I do? 

What did we do?

You found a new family before I was even born

So was your love for me doomed from the start?

I spent my whole life wanting your time. 

I just wanted a minute

A second.

A millisecond.

I just wanted your love. 

I wanted to be adored. 

That is all, I swear. 

But here we are. 

I stand upon this Earth with nothing

But your clock that ran out of time. 

You had nothing to give me but two little gifts….

One, the knowledge that sometimes blood isn’t enough. 

And two, sometimes no matter what I do, I will never be enough.